ACT OF GOD!!!

trying to make maximum out of every moment.....
still how narrow the aperture we all r carrying
matters that occupy us today...r nothing
but a matter of fun the next day..
we still waste our time on such ephemeral things..
thinking getting out of one will make us the most happy beings...
bt next day..its the turn of an another one....
well..it seems to be even more stern..
feeling the heat...we explore all avenues.....
inside my heart i've always found the final venue....
appreciations are welcomed by the winner..
but its an "act of GOD" for the loser....

an apology..

(story of a friend as told to me)



oh yes she was my best friend..
until one day she asked for smthng grand..
i gave her a smile..
bt my heart was glum..
fear to lose her wud make me numb..
to rebuff will make her grim..
i nodded and she grinned..
was having premonitions bt paid no heed..
didn't know it is goin to be a misdeed...
it ws not her bt the dillema that had occupied my mind..
everything seemed trifle,i had gone blind..
happiness that i was trying to give her was not real..
i did realise,that effort was infact surreal..
it was bttr to shut down before things cud get messed up..
was hard to do..after sm digressions..finally caught up..
i was groping for words to explain her my situation..
but her face cud tell me that she had had insinuations..
i was true at my part bt apprehensions galore..
i was just waiting for her reaction,cud think of nthng more..
she was so important that it all left me completely shaken..
don't know exactly bt probably she was heartbroken..
today also..i smtimes feel guilt..
at the least,i shd have apologised for the jilt..

the irony

well..life is indeed strange..
the more u try to bind it,the more it goes out of range..
smtimes it feels..
..its only me who is fucking around..
bt i am stunned..
as i see everyone getting spell bound..
eveyone has a question in mind..
wandering..for an answer to find..
they stand up in joy on getting it..
bt could only manage a'damn-it'..
coz...
..in a quest to answer the previous one..
they didn't realise that life has already changed the question..

very own...

the days of college,the days of adolescence..
knows evrythng bt still out of sense...

want to achieve the towering heights..
bt nly thnk..nd sleep switching off the lights..

leave working part for tommorow,
asthough the day has got a jinx..
bt the another day,plans again get into a fix..

the days pass,life moves on..
then you realise that time has gone..

it never comes back
and leaves you without a clue..
so, plan for the day is mantra to get through..