an apology..

(story of a friend as told to me)



oh yes she was my best friend..
until one day she asked for smthng grand..
i gave her a smile..
bt my heart was glum..
fear to lose her wud make me numb..
to rebuff will make her grim..
i nodded and she grinned..
was having premonitions bt paid no heed..
didn't know it is goin to be a misdeed...
it ws not her bt the dillema that had occupied my mind..
everything seemed trifle,i had gone blind..
happiness that i was trying to give her was not real..
i did realise,that effort was infact surreal..
it was bttr to shut down before things cud get messed up..
was hard to do..after sm digressions..finally caught up..
i was groping for words to explain her my situation..
but her face cud tell me that she had had insinuations..
i was true at my part bt apprehensions galore..
i was just waiting for her reaction,cud think of nthng more..
she was so important that it all left me completely shaken..
don't know exactly bt probably she was heartbroken..
today also..i smtimes feel guilt..
at the least,i shd have apologised for the jilt..